Persahabatan

Dunia aku tidak pernah kekurangan kawan.Aku sentiasa dikelilingi dengan orang-orang yang dapat ku panggil teman.Ada yang penyayang,baik hati,setia,saling menghormati,murah hati dan macam-macam lagilah.

Semenjak aku mula bersekolah,ya itu semenjak usia ku 4tahun,aku sudah mengumpul kawan tetapi,sebagai anak kecil,apalah yang aku tahu tentang makna sebuah persahabatan.Tetapi pada usia begitu,teman sepermainanku ramai.Usia menginjak setiap tahun dan tanpa tahu maknanya kehidupan,aku sudah pun cukup berusia untuk ke sekolah rendah.Teman begitu ramai.Tetapi selepas setiap akhir tahun,temanku sentiasa berubah-ubah orang.Aku tidak lagi bertegur sapa dengan teman lama dan mereka juga begitu.Jika ada pun,kami pasti akan rasa kekok.

Setiap tahun,pada setiap usia,aku membuat kawan baru.Mereka datang dan pergi.Sehingga usiaku 14 tahun,aku masih tidak lagi faham erti persahabatan.Teman hanya figura yang menemani kita sewaktu rehat,sewaktu main dan sewaktu belajar.Jika aku jumpa mereka diluar,tidak pernah sekali pun aku menegur mereka.Ia seperti persahabatan dibuat oleh ku hanya dibataskan di sekolah.

Semakin aku meningkat dewasa,semakin fikiran tahu untuk menentukan yang betul dan salah dan pabila aku rasa aku sudah cukup sensitif,baru aku tahu apa rasanya kehilangan,keseorangan,kasih sayang antara manusia dan persahabatan.Sejak itu,semua persahabatan yang terjalin pasti akan aku genggam seeratnya supaya ianya berkekalan.Aku yakin ia akan berkekalan.

Tetapi perhubungannya tidak selalunya indah.Dengki,cemburu,pergaduhan,semuanya berlaku dan kerana ini,sebuah persahabatan yang aku genggam akhirnya terlerai.Aku tangisi persahabatan yang selalu hilang.Akukah yang bersalah?Akukah yang tidak cukup baik?

Aku pergi ke poly.Kawan baru lagi.Tetapi kali ini, aku memilih kawanku.Jika dulu semua orang boleh menjadi kawanku,sekarang,aku memilih.Bukan aku sombong tetapi pengalaman mengajar aku supaya jangan bergaul terlalu bebas.Buat apa mencari teman jika semuanya tidak akan kekal.

Setiap kali aku berkenalan dengan sesiapa mereka pasti akan mengatakan aku sombong.Mengapa menilai kalau tidak tahu sedikit pun tentang diri aku?Kawan-kawanku sekarang,berapa ramai aja yang akan kekal.Aku pasti ada yang akan pergi juga dari hidup aku.Tetapi aku sudah terlalu bersedia untuk berhadapan dengan kehilangan mereka.

Aku?Selagi orang ingin berkawan denganku,selagi ini pintu hatiku terbuka untuk menerima.Kalau kau setia,itu bonus.Kalau tidak,biarlah kita hanya teman biasa walaupun hati aku akan rasa pedih jika mereka pergi kelak.

Persahabatan sebuah hubungan yang indah dan amat bermakna tetapi mengapa manusia selalu menjatuhkan maknanya sehingga membuat aku gerun dan melihat persahabatan sebagai sesuatu yang tidak berharga..Tiada siapa yag ingin menukar persepsiku kah?

2 days journal

I was watching HSM3 when suddenly I thought 'It would be super nice if we could all have such a graduation.I mean,it would be such a memorable graduation.Before everyone of us got busy with our own path of life.Studies;local or overseas,work;local or overseas.I didnt think about it that much after the movie ended but today,I listened to the graduation song again and I fall in love and mind me,I actually cried at the end of it.I was wondering how I am gonna leave everything on my graduation ceremony and day.I wouldnt want everything to go away.

I want to smile and laugh knowing that that is all because of my friends here.But you know.Graduation is something that will come by everytime you end school,so, whether you like it or not,its a must to go through.

Isnt there a prom night for us all?Haha..Maybe we can have all the ECC with MIT or anything..Hahah..Hha..The last dance and the last night with these dear people.At least a memorable one before we say our goodbyes.

You see.,I watch another video and I cry..Dammit! Tqah.Stop being so sensitive,,,Ya ampun..AKu nie!!!!! Isk!!

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Self note.What have I exactly achieved this year..AHHAHA...Only 1 thing

And that is Projeck Cerpen.Whether I win or not,I achieved something and that is the guts to enter the competition and doing well in it..Alhamdulillah.

So for thsi year,I wont really say I have achieved nothing because I have achieved something.Again is that the experience at ShangriLa.Working with important people and dealing with people from all over the country.WOW!Thats another thing I have greatly achieved..What I truly gain this year is experience.All kind of experience.Now at work,Coca Cola,I am still finding and gaining experience.This I know is an experience so valuable only that I havent really have my heart and soul into it.

The friends I made this year will never be forgotten.I realised something.We all will part but theres always facebook and MSN and handphone to make us all connected.So,if everyone keep the piece of friendship,everything will turn out nice and wonderful.:)

The memories I shared with family and friends,that I will never forget.The sweet,the bitter.I still have pictures to keep everything with me.

Attachment is the last path to getting my Diploma.Such a relieve..Not! As much as we I want to throw all books and studies,I don't want to leave school just yet and start for work.Does this mean my study life has ended?No more having to carry notes and books to school.No more having to sit in class hoping the kecturer is not coming.No more having them nag and blabber like as if anyone was listening.No more hoping that class was cut short so we could all hang out .No more feeling all so happy because on the particular day we have 2hours break.Just no more..

And I very much bersyukur for all the rezeki Allah have given me..I very very very much bersyukur for it.

`I didnt check my post'

The final of Princess Almas

Princess Almas and Prince Luv lead their lives per normal everyday since they got back together.They meet when Prince Luv was not busy with any agenda.Princess Almas thought,maybe this was what fate has for her.She might br meant for Prince Luv.Never once have Prince Luv utter a word about the past and the pain she caused him the other time.Everyday he shower her with all the love and care.Just like Prince Luv to be doing those.

One day as they were having tea at the near garden,both Princess Almas and Prince Luv hear the laughter of a couple.They turned to the laughter and both saw Prince Sky with Princess Chera.Princess Almas turned away and as much as she wants to deny it,it was jealousy and hurt she felt but for the sake of the man in front of her,she put up a smile and tried not to br bothered by them.

Prince Luv saw the change in the Princess movement.If justnow,she was free to move,now,she stays rigid and her smile,they weren't that sweet as earlier.

'Prince Sky!' Prince Luv called out
"Oh yes Prince Luv and Princess Almas.It has been quite sometimes since I see you,' replied Prince Sky as he and Princess Chera walked towards Princess Almas and Prince Luv.
"Aniway,meet my bride-to-be, Princess Chera.I pressumed you know her."added Prince Sky

As the love birds walked away a moment later,Princess Almas poured another cup of tea for Prince Luv.

"You still loved him ?" the sudden question from Prince Luv surprised the Princess.
"I have promise to dedicate my life to you so we shall not say a word about it.I have completely forget about him," replied Princess Almas calmly.

The conversation about the Princess's feeling ended there.The afternoon was then spend with love and laughter.Princess Almas knew,this was the love she should defend.Her love for Prince Sky was a mistake and it shouldnt have happened.

And like every other princess-ly story,Princess Almas and Prince Luv livehappily ever after...